Saturday, March 31, 2007
Beautiful life =)
hey girls!
can see that not many of you actually drop by this blog to sae something or post something, this is our blog, just hope that you girls can make a little effort to write down something too =) a couple of words are enough, we dont expect everyone to write long essay or novel. i knew that everyone got their own life now, some may be very busy, some may be very tire, some may be too lazy, or is simply too busy enjoying life. if you are enjoying yourself, good for u! if u r abit sick of ur life, den buck up! if any good thing happened, can write down to share with us =) as the same time, if anything bothering you, we r willing to lent you a listening hear too =)
just to update abit of myself =)
i finally got my complete result in poly, i successfully completed my 3 yr of study in nyp. my final gpa is 3.57. and then NTU school of social science asked me down for an interview next week, but i think i am giving up the place. cos after much thinking, i am not going just for a cert from NTU, but a cert of something i think i can execl on. if both NUS and NTU school of biz do not accept me, i think i will get a full time job and study part time biz course in SIM.
suddenly got a bit of emo feeling, think i will wan to say some emo stuffs.
when i gotten my full result, i realise how times really flies. can you believe it was a 3 yr dip course? able to hold on the result means 3 yr have passed. thinkin back, we have actually known each other for around 7 years. not to give any wet blanket, but can this friendship last for another 7 years? or even another 7 years after that 7 years?
if you ask me, am i happy to have maintained such a long 7 years friendship? i will say, 'i m, but if able to choose, i will wan to start this all over again, bulid this friendship again.' i knew that this was plain dreaming.
i really dont know why i will have such a mixed feeling, why am i lookin back? i used to be a person who keep on looking forward. since when i am becoming this way? issit because of that stage in everyone's life; growing up.
few years back, i looked forward to alot of things. look forward to band practises, lunch at vista point, teacher day, school holiday, olvl, 6 months holiday after olvl, olvl result, new poly life, lunch in school, meeting new friends, school event, handsome guys in sch, and of cos outing with u girls =). kept on lookin forward until a point i wan to look back, i can c that we are nt getting younger. hitting that deadful '2', 20. i wan to go back to study. even any outing with u girl, after the day out, i will wan to look back again, wan to enjoy myself again. all outing with u girls have been a good one. =)
no one can stop this growing up, you can only make it beautiful. r u doing it?
i dun know whether m i doing it or not, did i spend my time in the correct way? i admitted, i can be quite fake sometime. this is life man, sometime no choice, you just have to put on a mask to face the world. now thinkin back, y should i ever need to do this at all? i am myself, only the real me, the real jes is the best personality i can ever be! so i decided to throw away this mask, i just wanna be me.
i dun wan to grow up so quickly, after so many part time jobs and attachment in some whatever company, i can actually see what the others is doing. the political stuffs in office. how fake some smiles can be, how can human beings be so scary? and i knew that 1 day i will need to be among them. no more kiddy wonderland. if u r nt alert, u may b one of their kick off target too.
and seriously, i dun wan to be in the office, staring in the screen, from 9am to 6pm. i rather be under the sun, or walking around. is there any job out there tt suit me????
recall and recall, think the one job i wan is to be a singer! slap myself, y can't i think of something that i can really do?
but,
i got something that i wanna say, from the bottom of my heart.
人为了梦想而变得伟大。
this quote is abit 老掉牙， i knew that.
but i seriously believe in it, i love to sing! and this is my passion, my greatest and craziest dream i can ever have. so i am no way in giving it up. the possiblity is close to 0%, but you wun know. even if i will never be a singer till the end of my life, i just know that i did try, but just that something went wrong so i didnt get hold the chance of it. so nothing to be sad about. unable to be a singer, i will still try to get a job that is related to it, abit hard, esp in this tiny and lousy singapore market. i will never say die, mayb just a little grumble here and there.
so girls, i decided to join the teenage icon singing competition and be a star singing competition. if u girls have any lobang or c any competition that is related to singing, remember to tell me =)
after so much of my thoughts and feel, i got something wan to tell u girls too.
life is just so short, a straight line, no loop, you can never turn it back. if you have anything in mind, spilt it out! just do it! even if it is something that is so silly or so unnoticable. wan to be a photographer? go. wan to study fish? go. wan to be a doctor? go! wan to earn big money? go!! wan to get marry b a housewife? go!!!! wan to open a shop? gogo go!!! do whats u think best for urself. only u knew what u wan and wat u capable on. i dun wan to c any of us, regret 30 yrs later. grap it if there is any chance! make yourself shine! you r the super model in your life.
yup! i love to sing, and i wan to sing till i reached to the point i can't speak anymore! =)
love u girls,
jes
Love WU ZUN!